Long Untitled Poem

Living in darkness since you've been astray,
Hoping and wishing, day after day,
That I won't be unseen, that I can exist,
As someone you love, number one on your list,
But right now I mean shit, lower than dirt,
And I go unnoticed, and you don't see my hurt,
How I've been destroyed, mind, body, and soul,
You have the pieces, so make my heart whole.
It's there in your hands, yet you sit without sound,
And you toss me away, so I come tumbling down,
I know to the fullest, you just don't care,
Yet you cast out your love, and now I'm ensnared,
In a net filled with thorns, that rip at my skin,
But I'm too blinded to register the pain that I'm in,
Blinded by you, and your dark wings so soft,
I'd counted on those; Hoped they'd keep me aloft,
But instead they caressed me, then let me fall,
Leaving me drowning in the pain of it all,
Agony rips through me, dragging me down,
Lifeless and numb, I don't look around,
I just wish for silence, final and sweet,
Yet as pained as I am... I hope that in Heaven again we will meet.~